80 Days

Oh my gosh - I cannot believe that the due date is in just EIGHTY days!  Where did the past 200 days go? 

Someone asked me yesterday a question, which seems to be the 2nd most common question I am asked about this journey, behind "You get paid for that, right?!" which I absolutelyyyyyyyyyy dislike and if you ask me, I'll glady tell you the reasons why I hate that question.. but anyhow, the 2nd most asked question is how I'll be able to give the baby away.. First, it's not "giving away" the baby.. it is "giving back" the baby.. I am, as they call me, their kangaroo mama.. nothing more, nothing less. She is growing inside me, until she can grow inside their arms.  Yes, I love her, I love her very much, but it's not the same love that I felt while carrying my own babies.. I don't know how my heart and mind work exactly, but the love I feel for her is unexplainable.. it is the greatest of this type of indescribable love, but not the love that a mother has for her own child, more like a proud love, a way that I would look at any precious miracle baby. 

So in 80 days, or less, or more - but God I hope not much more, I will be witnessing an amazing woman and man hold their baby for the first time, I may cry, but every tear will be the happiest of tears.  I have been dreaming about this moment for almost a year and a half - and I cannot believe it will be here in less than 3 months.  Pretty darn amazing!

I would love to answer ANY questions people may have.. they will be kept anonymous if you wish, but it will be great to answer more questions and give me motivation to update this blog more often :)  Send to SurrogateInRI@gmail.com