Four months ago today, Nain was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, 59 days after our transfer, and just 35 days after seeing his baby's heart beat for the first time - A time when he should be beyond happy about becoming a first time daddy and planning for his family's future. But instead he is consumed with doctor appointments and cancer treatments. Yet, if you met him today, you'd never know all he's been through - he is such a strong man, husband, and father (he has lots of practice with Lucy, their pug) and he keeps singing, singing, singing!
It's been a long, curvy road, and very different from what I pictured it would be, but I truly love OUR story and I feel so blessed to be a part of this journey with them. People say everything happens for a reason, and whether that is true, or if it's just a saying to help people move on, I truly don't know but I do believe every moment since July 2010 has happened exactly as it has for some reason.. the delays we had in the beginning gave us more time to get to know each other, Kate's body not producing as many eggs as she had hoped but were great quality, transferring two embryos, but only one sticking, them going on vacation just a couple weeks later and truly enjoying themselves, me carrying their precious miracle as they sit and hear the worst news of their lives and me still carrying their baby as they deal with this disease on a daily basis.. I feel I was brought to them for a reason, at that exactly moment for a reason, we got pregnant when we did for a reason, and he wasn't diagnosed until afterwards for a reason and that reason will be here is just 12 weeks - she is truly a miracle and she makes me realize exactly how precious life really is - I know she'll grow up to be something truly amazing one day.. God really wanted her to be here for a REASON, watch out everyone - Amara is going to change the WORLD one day!!
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
And she shall be called....
Lots of exciting things have been happening.. Doctors, Babyshower, and Namepicking!! Woohoo!!
I went to the doctors this week and me and baby are doing wonderful - everything is measuring great and her heartbeat is nice and strong! I did the glucose test and just have to wait for the results. I go back for another checkup in 4 weeks, and then my appointments will start being biweekly, with the first biweekly appt including an ultrasound :) I love ultrasounds because that means Mommy and Daddy will come to the appointment with me and it's always better with them there!!!
Yesterday was the baby shower! I LOVE baby showers - it's always great to get together and celebrate and shower the mommy-to-be with lots of love and presents! The day was beautiful, just like the weather! Kenny and I were both so proud to have been apart of their special day. We thought it would have been a tad awkward, since we didn't know anyone, but it wasn't at all - it was fantastic! Everyone treated us like part of the family, they hugged us, talked to us, and thanked us - it was just amazing. I think the baby got everything she needs, plus some! I cannot wait to see the finished nursery, she is truly going to be a little princess! Kate got me such beautiful gifts, including a beautiful handwritten letter that took me 3 attempts to read through because I did not want to cry while being there! One of her friends, that I had met at the walk last month, also gave me a card with a beautifully written note inside. Yesterday was a greatttt day and only one thing prevented it from pure perfection and that is cancer! Nain joined us to eat and chat a bit, but then he had to go rest because he wasn't feeling well. I wish he could have had enjoyed the day, like he was suppose to. Kate, Nain and baby are very blessed to be loved by so many people and if love alone could cure diseases, they would be the healthiest of all!
And last, but not least, as the title of this entry suggests, "she", "Julio-a", "Juanita", etc.. has a real legit name now!! Her name is going to be AMARA! Amara means "eternal" - and it's absolutely perfect for her! Little Amara has definitely changed my life, for etenity.
I went to the doctors this week and me and baby are doing wonderful - everything is measuring great and her heartbeat is nice and strong! I did the glucose test and just have to wait for the results. I go back for another checkup in 4 weeks, and then my appointments will start being biweekly, with the first biweekly appt including an ultrasound :) I love ultrasounds because that means Mommy and Daddy will come to the appointment with me and it's always better with them there!!!
Yesterday was the baby shower! I LOVE baby showers - it's always great to get together and celebrate and shower the mommy-to-be with lots of love and presents! The day was beautiful, just like the weather! Kenny and I were both so proud to have been apart of their special day. We thought it would have been a tad awkward, since we didn't know anyone, but it wasn't at all - it was fantastic! Everyone treated us like part of the family, they hugged us, talked to us, and thanked us - it was just amazing. I think the baby got everything she needs, plus some! I cannot wait to see the finished nursery, she is truly going to be a little princess! Kate got me such beautiful gifts, including a beautiful handwritten letter that took me 3 attempts to read through because I did not want to cry while being there! One of her friends, that I had met at the walk last month, also gave me a card with a beautifully written note inside. Yesterday was a greatttt day and only one thing prevented it from pure perfection and that is cancer! Nain joined us to eat and chat a bit, but then he had to go rest because he wasn't feeling well. I wish he could have had enjoyed the day, like he was suppose to. Kate, Nain and baby are very blessed to be loved by so many people and if love alone could cure diseases, they would be the healthiest of all!
And last, but not least, as the title of this entry suggests, "she", "Julio-a", "Juanita", etc.. has a real legit name now!! Her name is going to be AMARA! Amara means "eternal" - and it's absolutely perfect for her! Little Amara has definitely changed my life, for etenity.
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