Four months ago today, Nain was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, 59 days after our transfer, and just 35 days after seeing his baby's heart beat for the first time - A time when he should be beyond happy about becoming a first time daddy and planning for his family's future. But instead he is consumed with doctor appointments and cancer treatments. Yet, if you met him today, you'd never know all he's been through - he is such a strong man, husband, and father (he has lots of practice with Lucy, their pug) and he keeps singing, singing, singing!
It's been a long, curvy road, and very different from what I pictured it would be, but I truly love OUR story and I feel so blessed to be a part of this journey with them. People say everything happens for a reason, and whether that is true, or if it's just a saying to help people move on, I truly don't know but I do believe every moment since July 2010 has happened exactly as it has for some reason.. the delays we had in the beginning gave us more time to get to know each other, Kate's body not producing as many eggs as she had hoped but were great quality, transferring two embryos, but only one sticking, them going on vacation just a couple weeks later and truly enjoying themselves, me carrying their precious miracle as they sit and hear the worst news of their lives and me still carrying their baby as they deal with this disease on a daily basis.. I feel I was brought to them for a reason, at that exactly moment for a reason, we got pregnant when we did for a reason, and he wasn't diagnosed until afterwards for a reason and that reason will be here is just 12 weeks - she is truly a miracle and she makes me realize exactly how precious life really is - I know she'll grow up to be something truly amazing one day.. God really wanted her to be here for a REASON, watch out everyone - Amara is going to change the WORLD one day!!
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