Time will tell

Recently I have been getting asked if my doctor and/or if Kate and Nain have discussed doing a possible early induction if Nain's health continues to decline - I was actually asked this exact question 4 times just yesterday. 

I honestly have not really thought about it, my OB has never brought up the topic and my Kate has never spoken about it.  But I can attempt to tell you how I "think" we all feel..

I would do it in a heartbeat - I want nothing more than to be able to witness Nain hold his daughter, to smell her, to hug her, to kiss her, to simply be her daddy.  I do not know what the next 10 weeks will bring.  Am I still hoping for a miracle?  HELL YES!  Do I want to think about him declining even more than he already is?  HELL NO!  But it is also a reality that we must face, so as I let the sadness of the reality sit in the back of my head, I continue to think positive and have faith - maybe that is why I haven't discussed this question with my OB or Kate... maybe I just hope it's not something we'll have to worry about...

My OB is wonderful!  She knows what is going on and she is very empathetic towards the whole situation, she is always telling me how she thinks of us even on her days off, and prayers for us at church - sometimes I think I ever see a tear in her eye - I believe that if we reached 37 weeks and Amara was healthy and looking good, I do think that she would consider an induction.

BUT with that said,

I don't think Kate or Nain would want that.. as much as I am sure they both feel like I do, all they want is to be a family -TOGETHER- I feel that considering all they have been through, all the ups and downs, the dreams come true moments and the nightmares.. I feel all they really want is the most healthy baby possible.  Again this is only my opinion, but I think they would want labor to start naturally and to not force what was not meant to be... just leave it up to the man above.

Then again, I could be totally wrong... only time will tell....